I completed the Oneness Deepening Course at Oneness University (OU) March 23 - April 20 2013.
When I got Home I was busy explaining to people what I had been thru. I talked about the climate in India, the food at OU, the Sadhanas and other aspects of the course. I always ended every conversation with a statement that I was glad I went, that I was called to OU by Bhagavan and that my mind had become "De-Clutched". I had a quiet inside of me that I had not know and that I appreciate everyday. I do not have chatter which leads to suffering any more...I have quiet and then purpose when I need it to accomplish tasks. It's been interesting to play with whether my thoughts are purpose driven or "chatter".
I believe the latter is the case. Thoughts come up about what I need to do. Is this my mind trying to regain it's foothold in me again? and maintain itself? I have a marvelous sense of purpose when I do anything that I relish..this makes doing even mundane tasks easier. They are easier because I am just in the act of doing them, not complaining in my mind and heart about the fact that I have to do them...not blaming anyone or chastising them that my doing something is their fault...This is something that Kumargi said would be the case and so far he is right...being liberated from Work. I have been doing Seva in the form of Oneness Awakened Deekshas via Livestream and I held a community night recently for Oneness people in my area to begin building community in the way that Doug said we should be doing it..I'm going to Whole Foods this week to investigate getting on their calendar to do Oneness presentations. I've been doing these things which are enriching to me but they don't maintain my connection with the Divine the way that focused prayer and daily ritual do. This requires time that is spent with intent towards doing this. If I do this, everything else goes more smoothly and my feeling of the connection with Bhagavan and my Antaryamin remains solid and grounding. Bhagavan walks with me each day, all day long and guides me. I am still a human being with flaws and am working to understand where I am going with all this. At times I feel scared that I will lose my connection. As the presence of OU fades over time. I remember the people who were there with me and how I respected them so much for having had the strength to complete the deepening. I appreciated their presence but was going thru my process and with Moana and cultural differences only formed close ties with a few.
I am away from a larger group of people to maintain a connection to Oneness with outside of a gathering that takes place every Tuesday night in a town close by. Thank God I have that!...While the solitude is difficult it also affords me the time to see who I am and to continue this work of Awakening.
I know I was awakened, They told me I was awakened..I believe that I was awakened, I feel it deep within me every moment, I have been changed. I was with many people and doing my process, now I am not with many people but am still doing my process..it's different and I don't have the guides and the energy at OU to help me. I have to believe in myself and that I can do this. The guides told us to allow this to develop and run it's course over the next 6 months to a year...well I'm doing this...and it's hard because I don't have any knowledgeable people to bounce ideas off of or to provide coaching...Maybe I'll reach out to others for sharing and feedback.
When I got Home I was busy explaining to people what I had been thru. I talked about the climate in India, the food at OU, the Sadhanas and other aspects of the course. I always ended every conversation with a statement that I was glad I went, that I was called to OU by Bhagavan and that my mind had become "De-Clutched". I had a quiet inside of me that I had not know and that I appreciate everyday. I do not have chatter which leads to suffering any more...I have quiet and then purpose when I need it to accomplish tasks. It's been interesting to play with whether my thoughts are purpose driven or "chatter".
I believe the latter is the case. Thoughts come up about what I need to do. Is this my mind trying to regain it's foothold in me again? and maintain itself? I have a marvelous sense of purpose when I do anything that I relish..this makes doing even mundane tasks easier. They are easier because I am just in the act of doing them, not complaining in my mind and heart about the fact that I have to do them...not blaming anyone or chastising them that my doing something is their fault...This is something that Kumargi said would be the case and so far he is right...being liberated from Work. I have been doing Seva in the form of Oneness Awakened Deekshas via Livestream and I held a community night recently for Oneness people in my area to begin building community in the way that Doug said we should be doing it..I'm going to Whole Foods this week to investigate getting on their calendar to do Oneness presentations. I've been doing these things which are enriching to me but they don't maintain my connection with the Divine the way that focused prayer and daily ritual do. This requires time that is spent with intent towards doing this. If I do this, everything else goes more smoothly and my feeling of the connection with Bhagavan and my Antaryamin remains solid and grounding. Bhagavan walks with me each day, all day long and guides me. I am still a human being with flaws and am working to understand where I am going with all this. At times I feel scared that I will lose my connection. As the presence of OU fades over time. I remember the people who were there with me and how I respected them so much for having had the strength to complete the deepening. I appreciated their presence but was going thru my process and with Moana and cultural differences only formed close ties with a few.
I am away from a larger group of people to maintain a connection to Oneness with outside of a gathering that takes place every Tuesday night in a town close by. Thank God I have that!...While the solitude is difficult it also affords me the time to see who I am and to continue this work of Awakening.
I know I was awakened, They told me I was awakened..I believe that I was awakened, I feel it deep within me every moment, I have been changed. I was with many people and doing my process, now I am not with many people but am still doing my process..it's different and I don't have the guides and the energy at OU to help me. I have to believe in myself and that I can do this. The guides told us to allow this to develop and run it's course over the next 6 months to a year...well I'm doing this...and it's hard because I don't have any knowledgeable people to bounce ideas off of or to provide coaching...Maybe I'll reach out to others for sharing and feedback.
